Note to readers: I am participating in the
CareGiving.com Holiday
Progressive Blog Party. There are
several people participating, (all of whom have wonderful blogs) and we will be
stopping by to read each other’s stories and showing support through this
holiday season.
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| As promised! |
The party starts today and I promised hot cocoa and tiny
marshmallows to everyone! (Okay, so it is a virtual cup but just imagine how
yummy it would be with a candy cane!)
Welcome to the party!
I want to share this story about blessings to kick off the party.
The other morning while driving Robert to his Day Program, I
was listening to my morning talk radio and Robert was working on his Word
Search puzzle. I have been concerned
about Robert lately because he has said odd things that make me think his brain
is going down a path I really don’t want to witness.
At Thanksgiving, Robert asked me, “What’s my brother’s
name? The one married to Liz?”
Taken aback, I looked at him like he was from Mars and said,
“You mean Rich?”
“No, my other brother."
We don’t have any other brothers. Rich is it. Yes, I call Rich “Other Brother”
in my blog but I don’t think Robert has been reading my posts (in fact, I am
sure of it – he doesn’t understand computers other than it is the thing where
people read about him.)
Another morning while I was driving, Robert asked me what he was supposed to do
next on his Word Search. I could be very
dramatic and say this almost caused me to get into an accident due to the shock
of his question but everyone who knows me, knows I drive like a great-grandma
so that wouldn’t be very realistic.
You get the point.
There is something going on with Robert.
Of course I worry about this. Add to these odd experiences the fact that
Robert has had two days in a span of three weeks where he had dozens of
seizures within a few hours. Yikes!
What the heck is going on?
I worry and fret and contact his neurologist (and in the
meantime, also have him put on antibiotics because his breathing is labored, he
has congestion and he is showing usual signs of getting pneumonia).
So all this is swirling in my brain driving Robert to Day
Program. While doing his Word Search,
Robert says that he just got a blessing from God.
“That’s nice.”
I go back to listening to my radio program while my brain
thinks about upcoming doctor appointments and odd behaviors and Christmas. Oh, yes, Christmas is just around the corner
and we need to get the tree up, decorations out of the shed, shopping finished.
. . I don’t even know why I listen to talk radio – the chatter in my head is
enough to amuse anyone.
Robert tells me he got another blessing from God when he
read one of his words.
And another.
And another.
I pay attention to him now.
I wonder if this is an aura before he has a seizure. I ask him why he is
saying he is getting a blessing.
“I got a blessing from God when I read that word.”
Well, okay. But
WHY? What are you talking about? What does it feel like?
“I just got another blessing from God when I read that word.”
I DON”T UNDERSTAND!
I try another tactic.
Do you feel something in your head when you get a blessing?
“Yes.” Ah, we’re getting
somewhere.
“Actually, I feel it all over.” Oh. Hmm.
He continued to do his Word Search. “I didn’t get a blessing reading that word.”
So you are telling me you just randomly get this feeling in
your body and it is a blessing from God?
“Yes.”
I slowly come to the realization that I just may have to
accept – on faith – that Robert randomly gets blessings. A friend of mine
recently wrote about the small miracles she experiences in a day and I can
definitely see those types of things (it stopped raining when I was driving or
a stranger was kind or all the lights were green) as miracles or luck or great
karma.
I wonder if these blessings are little miracles that Robert
is experiencing (while his crazy sister is analyzing him and the blessings and
trying to rationally explain them).
Maybe they are just blessings. Maybe he really does feel blessings from God
in his entire soul and being.
Wow. I still don't understand it but how awesome is
that?
